I only have 58 days left

It's not that I am dying or something bad will happen and I have 58 days left to live this awesome life (God forbid), what I mean to say is I only have 58 days to prepare myself and accomplish things before my age turns 21 this coming May 10. How time pass by so quickly and I'm definitely not getting any younger at all, and some thoughts are bothering me lately that I became insomniac and it's giving me a migraine every now and then. So what's the fuss all about huh? nothing, just me loosing my self-esteem because at the age of twenty I still don't know what I want to do with my life and don't have any plans yet (that hits my head really really hard). This is the mere result of years I deprived myself from exploring life outside my room especially during high school days when I locked my self up in my room and watch television as long as it please me.

A time machine will help me a lot with my present situation if only I can turn back time and change things so that my life will not turn out the way it is now. In case you're wondering if I even have at least friends to mingle with and not just my very best friend which is the television set, yeah, I have friends but I don't see them often and I don't communicate much not really minding at all. To cut the chase, I am living within my comfort zone all those years and not minding anything about the future so here I am making sentiments about my foolishness. Now after seeking for advice from my dear friends and after reading a bunch of blogs and watching a lot of good vibes videos on youtube, I am ready to start from scratch and step by step creating myself because there's this saying that "life is not about finding yourself, it's about creating yourself" which is very true.

A special thanks for my family and their never ending love and support for me whenever I'm in trouble or just feeling inferior they never fail to raise me up every downfall. This time I will make them proud by being strong enough to step out of my comfort zone and not let another year pass and miss out again somethings that matters. I can't wait to start the new chapter of my life and I'm looking forward to the adventures that awaits me. Kung hindi ngayon, kailan pa ako magsisimula? life is unpredictable we have to expect the unexpected and live our lives to the fullest today without thinking about tomorrow. It's scary but I think I can handle it with the help of my loving family and friends I will do just fine.

Really looking forward for the new chapter of my life I know it will not be easy but someone have to change for the better and for the benefit of all. I can picture myself now after 5 years (oh yeah!), sometimes we just really need a little spanking to be able to wake up into reality.^_^